Loud

Sometimes when I feel like my brain gets loud, I jump right into beating myself up about it. There’s the ideal version of a “calm” mind that I feel like everyone seeks (lol), but at the end of the day, being mean to myself about how I think it only makes my brain louder.

I’ve definitely spoke to this before, but what I struggle with most is learning to accept that I’m a deep thinker. I’m a deep feeler. I care. It’s often times annoying, but it’s often times beautiful. I can’t just “turn it off.” Which is quite literally a blessing and a curse! I think this creates the most thoughts I find to be loud in my mind.

I get frustrated a lot with it, but I think the important thing to remember is that there’s care there. While I’ve been learning how to manage what to care about and what to not care about, it’s an ongoing battle I have with myself. Every day.

So if you’re a deep feeler or thinker, first off, you’re not alone. Second off, it means you care. And that’s never something to be upset about, no matter how hard it can be. I personally think it’s beautiful.

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